Boyfriends.

There is one high school reality that everyone worries about. Relationships. High school is definitely the times period where these things begin. The place where hearts are captured and broken. But all this is totally unnecessary. From my experience, I know how easy it is to get side tracked and find yourself being swept off your feet by that so called "perfect guy". But what you need to remember is that if this guy is really the one for you, being with this person will not interfere with your school life and your connection with your family. IF this does happen, then either you need to get your priorities straight and make it clear with him that you have other things that are just as important in your life as your boyfriend. But there is plenty of time for that stuff. High school is the time to enjoy yourself and make decisions that reflect on your life. But here is my story.

There was this one guy in my science class who was the cutest and sweetest guy in the world. And he seemed to be interested in me so I decided to make a move. The day I had planned to do this, our teacher assigned us a project where we had gotten to choose our groups. And he'd chosen me. So of course I was all excited about that. but there was also this other guy in our group that I started to befriend. And in the end, the guy i liked, the guy I had just met, and I had all traded numbers and had a couple of laughs over some inside jokes. And later on in the day, the guy I had just met who I'll call Jake for this purpose and I realized that we also had Socials together. But we had a seat assignment for that class so we couldn't sit together and so we settled for texting. And first of all, I just have to say that this was the first mistake I made. You shouldn't break the rules over any guy. No matter how little the rule is. But anyways, so we texted for a while in class and I could hear his friends saying "Jake, Jake! Who are you texting?" and "Ohh Jake! Is that your girlfriend?" and all the while I never heard anything from Jake. Then after class I caught up to him in the hall and started talking to him. That's when I realized how sweet and cute he actually was. But it was after school when everything took a drastic turn. I was at musical theatre rehearsal when I got a message on my phone. It was Jake. We started talking again for a while about stuff and then after a while he asked what guys usually ask. "Who do you like?" and so I told him that I wouldn't tell him until I knew him a bit better. And plus, I was starting to have second thoughts about him. I was starting to fall for him. But after a while he became more and more persistent and he asked "Me??" and I didn't really know at that point so I said "Maybe. I don't know. What if it was you?" and he said that he wouldn't mind but if he was going to like me back, then he was going to have to get to know me better. So that's how it all started. For a month it was all just us getting to know each other and then once we knew each other inside and out, we started to talk about US. But here's the thing. We never got any time to hang out together in real life. I had rehearsals everyday until 5pm and he had basketball everyday at lunch. And I couldn't talk to him in class because of some personal reasons with the people that sat around him. So we mostly only talked over text and that was all. But after two months, things started to change. I started to want to move on to the next stage of our relationship. But there was just one problem. I am a pretty shy person and I didn't really fit in with the people he hung out with. So I avoided contact and that was when I decided that this wouldn't work. I had to have someone who would take charge and the initiative to make me feel welcome to make up for my shy personality. So after three months we called it off. I told him I just wanted to be friends and we made sure that this was what we wanted. And now we are just friends and he has moved on. But I am feeling regret over my decision and I am always wondering what would have been if I'd actually had the guts to make a move. But during these few months, my life had been composed of one thing. Jake. I'd dreamed about him, daydreamed about him, talked to him 24/7, and even once I'd accidentally called my brother Jake. My whole world was full of Jake. Jake. Jake. even though I'm a great student, homework had become impossible for me and I'd stayed up till 8am once just talking away. it came to the point that when we called it off, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. So now that I've learned this, I think that if I were to go back and redo this, I would make sure that I came out of my shell and made an effort to make some face to face contact.